After prayer meeting I felt so full emotionally. It wasn’t a super happy, on cloud-nine, bursting with excitement type of full. It was an indwelling of God’s spirit trying to speak to me. Few times I can hear very clearly what He’s telling me, most other times I need to pray, cry, listen to music, clean, or talk it out. This time I felt an urge to hear a song by one of my new favs…Franscesca Battistelli’s “Stangely Dim” So I pulled up Youtube on my phone and listened to it.
I have heard this song many times. I like it every time I hear it. But this time I couldn’t even get to the chorus without crying. Its my theme song. I look ahead, I have visions of life, I anticipate things, I worry about things that may never happen, I dwell on past hurts,regrets, and mistakes. I see “as clear as mud” (Dr. Dwight Ginn). But the truth of this song has penetrated to the depths of my soul. The simple truth that I need to fix my eyes on all that God is until all the worry, the strife, the striving, the circumstances grow strangely dim. If I could begin to learn to draw so close to God that he is all I see and everything else becomes my periphery, I will have the clarity of mind, the power and love of Christ, to face it all. And somehow just realizing this truth and accepting it, has given me peace. The power of attaining His peace, is the simple basking in His presence.
I’m not saying that I’m perfect at it already, because the Lord knows I’m not. I’m just going to start trying to be intentional about choosing to seek His face, to draw near to Him, to ask Him first, before I go, do, and serve.
Oh Heavenly father create in me a hunger for your presence every minute of every day. Remind me relentlessly to commune with you first.
May God bless you with His presence today and everyday. May God open your heart to receive His presence. Peace be with you.