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BROKENESS

Have you ever loved something? Something that brought you joy EVERY time you looked at it! Something that held meaning to your soul in which words could never describe. Something that could always make you smile.

Now imagine it’s broken. You frantically try to piece it back together. All the while making sure you have reclaimed every broken piece. You find your best glue and attempt to salvage the wreckage. After all the time and effort you look at your accomplishment only to find…well it’s no where near the beauty, joy, and grace it once was. It’s like a broken window repaired with duct tape.

DUCT TAPE…YES PICTURE THAT in your mind. Just let your imagination wonder a bit. Several cracks with duct tape going every which way. No. I’m not talking about the pretty kind you can make a dress out of these days. I’m talking about the silver. Utility. Duct tape. It’s ugly!

Well that is how my soul and my body have been feeling lately. I feel broken. Broken by the unkindness I see. Broken by the rudeness, the selfishness, the greed, the lust, the insatiable appetite of the enemy. My body feels broken. My mind feels like a frazzled over wired electric box. My heart feels heavy with the burden of all the things around me that I can not fix. I feel like the broken window. I try to fix it, but I only have silver Utility Duct tape. It’s not pretty. It doesn’t let the light in. It doesn’t sparkle. It’s just there. I am the broken window.

Thankfully my story doesn’t end there. It could. If I let it. If I choose to believe the perspective that there is no hope, I’m just the ugly broken window. But that is not the end my friends! You see I believe that the God I serve. The God who loves me. The God I call mine and I am His. I believe He is calling me to bring my brokenness to Him. I believe that He has something better in mind to restore, redeem, and repair my brokenness. I believe that as I surrender all my broken pieces He is making a beautiful mosaic of me.

You see He will take my plain ordinary broken pieces and use them for His glory! And as He does that each piece changes a little. It becomes more like the piece He intended it to be. He changes their colors, their shapes, their sizes! He’s changing me! He’s making me into the beautiful mosaic I’m meant to be! I just need to keep looking, keep talking, and keep seeking Him!

sunflower mosaic

One of my favorite songs
If We’re Honest by Frencesca Badistelli

It’s my prayer and hope that you find encouragement in this!

The Light

Beam Of Light

Beam Of Light (Photo credit: karma-police)

I have been focusing on scriptures with reference to light and God being the source of all light.  The reason being our church started a segment called “Servant Spotlight” once a month to highlight a ministry in our church.  I came across a great one today.
1John 1:7 “But if we walk in the light, God himself being the light, we also experience a shared life with one another, as the sacrificed blood of Jesus, God’s Son, purges all our sin.”

That verse caught me today. It intrigued me and pulled me in. I wanted to know what preceded the word but. That little word can do many things. According to my husband it can nullify an apology.
So I started digging and went to the source. I looked up the full chapter of 1John. I think the bible says it best so I will just paste it for you here. This is from The Message 1John1:5-10

“This, in essence, is the message we heard from Christ and are passing on to you: God is light, pure light; there’s not a trace of darkness in him.
6-7If we claim that we experience a shared life with him and continue to stumble around in the dark, we’re obviously lying through our teeth—we’re not living what we claim. But if we walk in the light, God himself being the light, we also experience a shared life with one another, as the sacrificed blood of Jesus, God’s Son, purges all our sin.
8-10If we claim that we’re free of sin, we’re only fooling ourselves. A claim like that is errant nonsense. On the other hand, if we admit our sins—make a clean break of them—he won’t let us down; he’ll be true to himself. He’ll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing. If we claim that we’ve never sinned, we out-and-out contradict God—make a liar out of him. A claim like that only shows off our ignorance of God.”

I read that and I am humbled. It is a call to constantly put oneself under the blood of Christ. There is nothing in myself that is good. The only Good in me is Christ. When I try to do things even in my own good intentions, without Christ becomes a giant mess. I must submit all of myself, my talents, my thoughts, my motives, my feelings, my words under the blood of Christ. I must let Him purify me before I move out into this world and attempt to show love, compassion, or grace.  I do not want to stumble around in darkness.  I would much rather see with God’s perfect clarity living in His great Light.

But it doesn’t stop there.  Just like in the picture above, the beam of light reaching down into the depths of a cave, God promises to redeem us.  We are never so far entangled in sin that His Light can not conquer the darkness within us.  All we have to do is surrender to him and acknowledge our need for Him and He is mighty to save.  I am thankful that I serve such a Big God.  He can clean up the messes I make tirelessly and still fill me with His grace.  He brings glory to himself while restoring my soul.  There is such peace in His light.

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